And yet I can’t stop loving him. It’s beautiful yet tragic. They say someone can leave an imprint on your heart and it will remain forever. I’ve tried to erase, ignore, replace…. Everything. So many many many years.
I will start to move on but then a thought, a movie, a dream, a picture and… And a song. Always the fucking songs! Will reduce me to a puddle on the floor crying over him. Asking all the questions …. Remembering every conversation.
Some days…. Some nights…. I remember how it felt with his hand in mine, his hands on my face….. My heart will ache and my soul is shaken to the core.
How can you miss and love someone so much…. Even when they treat you like you’re a nobody. Like you don’t exist. Like I’m nothing.
When will it stop hurting?