The moment of realization….

You live, you learn, you move on….

I use to want to be there for everyone and for anything.  Not so much anymore.  You see….   There are a lot  of people in this world that don’t give a flying fuck about you,  they pretend to … But they don’t. 

They have never felt true love in their hearts.  They have never felt an ounce of compassion,  they are insensitive to anyone’s needs but their own.

The world is messed up because there are these kind of people in this world who are so self centered….and just plain selfish. 

I volunteered my time today to help a group of people.  It was a holiday weekend, I wasn’t getting paid for it, and it took time away from being with my son. A lot of these people showed up late, unprepared, had bad attitudes or just didn’t show up at all.   I had to do everything in power to hold back from unleashing the fury on these people.  It amazes me just how shitty people can be…. And the examples they set for their children.  How can these type of people go through life…using people, treating them like their worthless, displaying such entitlement… All in front of their children??  Seriously…. What is wrong with these people?

It’s so hard not to lose faith in humanity right now. People are so cold. They display sociopath behavior at every turn. 

I’m to the point …. That I don’t trust anyone or anything. I fight that feeling everyday.  Why are people so dishonest and selfish? Why are people so mean? Why can’t people stop killing other people? Why does there always have to be one ass hat in the room?   

It’s exhausting. I’m exhausted. 

It’s a slow day….

I was hoping today would be a good day to sell…. 

Looks like I was wrong. Lol

However, it’s a beautiful day & my brother is keeping me company.   He just left so he can grab some lunch and bring back a speaker so we can play some tunes.  I may not sell anything today…. But at least we’ll have some good tunes. 

Black Friday…..

One word… Annoying.

Black Firday…That’s a lot of people and 50% of them are annoying . 

I prefer cyber Monday because I can shop at home, in my pj’s, with out being annoyed. 

I did venture out yesterday. I had to pick up some jewelry supplies and stuff for my jewelry booth. What normally would have taken 10-15 min turned into 45 min.  Then in the parking lot …a guy and his buddies walked by.  He asked me if I was “baking cookies”.   I assured him that I was not since I was in the parking lot.  He said because ” I’m sure Hungry for some MILF and cookies”.   Um…. Wtf.    I asked him…. “Do people still use that word , MILF?  I thought it died out with the American Pie franchise”. His friends laughed and he looked irritated. He said…. While biting his lip and rubbing his stomach… ( not sure what that was about)  “well obviously not because I just said it”.   As I went to step in my car, I paused and said ..                 ” Exactly.. YOU said it… But no one else does.   Hop back in your DeLorean McFly and go back to 1999.”    Of course then he didn’t think I was too milf-y after that.. And proceeded to call me a bitch, ugly, fucking old hag.  Yes… He had a temper tantrum.   

Why are most guys like that??  Maybe not that Douchey ….but they think they can try to be charming by saying the dumbest fucking things on the planet.  Then… If you don’t take the bait or aren’t interested they cut you down right away?  It’s so weird.  

Anywho… I can’t sleep. Big day ahead. Plus it bothers me what this asshole said. Not necessarily what he said but why he said it. Who is that comfortable to walk up to a stranger and pull that shit?  A sociopath?  Possibly. Then I thought … That could have been a potentially dangerous scenario.  Middle of the night, parking lot, three guys vs. me, I’m shooting my mouth off… Ugh.  My friend was saying “you’re lucky they weren’t carrying weapons… You should be carrying a weapon”.  Probably not wise for me to carry a weapon.   I would have shot him in the dick for just being a douch bag.  Yes…. I might have. A gun, stun gun , flare gun … Whatever … He would have been shot in the dick.    Yes it would have been worth it to see the look on his face. Yes that sounds violent.  Sometimes I am violent… The other times I collect faeries, make jewelry, and bake cookies and that kind of shit. 

It’s time to rise and grind. No …. Not an R. Kelly grind…. Or a gaggle of Lesbian grind…. I’m talking about  coffee.    It’s time to get up, get ready for the day , drink coffee and have a morning dance party.  First song on the ” dance party” list today…

Make today great people ….. and let’s take the word MILF off the table and bury it for good.  😊👍