You put up a wall… Think you’re doing great… You notice a tiny crack… You think… Eh… It will be fine… It will hold.
Then on a night … Like tonight… One song… One moment… And that small crack turns into a full brick , then two, then five.
It doesn’t all come crashing down… But it leaves a substantial hole… A hole big enough to let the outside wander in.
This song… Penetrated my walls tonight. It found the weak spot and came charging in…. Making me think, remember, feel.
I don’t want to feel.
Because it hurts too much. That vacant spot in your soul. It hurts when you think… You were never good enough… Why couldn’t I be better?? What more could I have done??
The questions will drive you to the deepest hole… Clawing to get out.
I don’t want to feel this.
This song… This fucking song!
I don’t know if I want to cry for it, punch it, hold it, love it, fuck it or kick it in the balls. It’s such a whirlwind of emotion emerging from the flood gates.
I will spend the rest of my night and this week patching the hole up….
Ladies and gentlemen the song that destroyed me tonight…
Tristan Prettyman- ” Never Say Never”