If I keep extending meditation time … I will never be able to leave my home.
It’s hard to stay positive when you are spinning your wheels in the some muddy back road.
Some days… Like today… I can’t help but to think about what I’m missing in life. Who I’m missing. Where I’m missing.
I sat for over an hour today and just cried.
There’s so much I want to do. So much I would love to say. So many places I want to go.
I know I’m tired. I’ve been disappointed a lot by people this week. I’m not feeling well. I’m a bit stressed.
I know all these things are playing a part in how I’m feeling.
I’ve pretty much shut myself off to people for the past 4 months.
I feel happy with the life I’ve made for myself. Proud of what I am accomplishing. Yet… I am very lonely.
It’s tiring being strong all the time. It’s overwhelming being responsible for so much. It’s stressful balancing the work load that I do. And I have no one…. I am a one woman army.