Happy Halloween!

Yeah! It’s my favorite time of the year!

I hope you have a very happy and safe Halloween!

I have been really busy… But I promise I will be back soon! I have very many stories to tell! Talk to you soon!


Day 2 of Halloween Week!

It’s hot in AZ this week… it’s been ruining my costume ideas.  

Today I decided to be a cat burglar…. i have on cat earrings. Haha! 

Hoping it cools down by this weekend… my costume for Saturday will need cooler temps for sure!  🎃

It’s Halloween week!!!!

What is my favorite time of year… My work has as just up for the whole week before Halloween. I love Halloween and I love dressing up and in costume! It’s so fun to see what all the kids that I work with are wearing.

Here’s day one of Halloween Week! 

I’m a Pikachu!  Haha. 

Have a happy Monday everyone !  😊

Here’s to another year…

Well.. it’s almost here. Tomorrow I turn another day older.  Birthdays for me have turned in to a insignificant event.  However, it’s about  his time every year that I evaluate the past year. Mistakes made, what I need to avoid in the future, what Worked/ what didn’t and so on. 

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about getting old.  Will I be in a home?  Will I just wither away in to nothing and no one will really know? Or will have own numerous cats, chase neighborhood children off my lawn with a broom. The options are endless I suppose.  

My accomplishments so far in this life… 1. my child and how caring and compassionate he is. 

2.  My work… and I continue to grow

3. To find my voice 

My failures….                                                         1. Trusting too easily

2. Believing that there is a soul mate & that they will care about you the same you care about them.

3. Unable to get my online store to grow. Making $20 – $40 a week off of it.  It’s not keeping the lights on or paying the rent that’s for sure.

So what now?    Well I’m in the process of finding a third job. I’m planning on working days and then going straight to my evening job.  Not ideal. But… hey .. you gotta do what you gotta do. Right?

Learning to let down my wall a bit. I’m worried that if I do… my heart will be splattered in to pieces.  It’s been awhile since that’s happened and I really would not like to revisit that feeling anytime soon. 

I’m realizing that chilvary, romance and unconditional love is a dying breed.  It’s a little sad to me.  I always think everything should be fairies, fireworks , kissing, puppies, flowers ,love letters,  skipping and coffee.. yes coffee                     I refuse to list this as one of my downfall issues… because  why are any of those a bad thing? Shouldn’t people want those things ? 

Currently.. I’ve picked up light hiking, art, the world of live streaming and being embraced by an amazing community of people that think a like .  Every day I try to improve myself … see something else I’ve never noticed before. 

There had been a lot in my life that has been horrible, sad, heartbreaking and damaging.   Everyday … I tried to counter balance it with something great. That way the nightmares and memories won’t consume me.  I’m a fighter.. i will fight for my happiness. Even if that means I go down swinging… I’m a fighter. 

And I will definitely fight for another year in this wacky life. 😊

Hug the ones that mean a lot to you. Make them feel appreciated .. like they matter.  Make time for yourself.  Make yourself happy.  Take the time to appreciate things … especially when things go wrong .  Breathe. Live. Love. Repeat. 

No school – No work

One of the down falls of my job is that when the school shuts down… sondoes my work.   Struggling check to check is so stressful. But …  to have a week .. sometimes more… with out pay is just a cluster fuck. 

I’ve been stressing about this week for the past three weeks. Now that it’s here, I’m realizing ….. yes! This is going to be tough.  However, I get some fantastic quality time with my kiddo.  I’m usually rushing off to work as he’s getting home from school. Sometimes during the week… i may only really talk to him a total of an hour/ hour and a half that day. It’s been fantastic to be able to have this time. My kid is so funny. When we hang out … I laugh for hours. 

I feel very fortunate to be able to have this time with him before I head back in to work and he goes back to school.   Trying to keep stress on the back burner and not think about the out come at the end of the month.  Instead… I will just take each day for what it is. An opportunity to have some quality time and feel grateful.