That’s what you get…..

Well… i have been pretty much hiding myself away for months and not letting anyone in.  

For the past 6 Months … I’ve been holding back someone. Being very cautious not to let him get too close.

About 3 weeks a go I decided to let my guard down and let him in.  Only to find out …he was exactly what I was afraid of to begin with. Why do men covet , conquer then walk away?  Ego ?   I don’t know.

So now… once again… I feel like an idiot for letting someone close to me.  Seriously this happens too many times. It’s obvious there’s something wrong with me. I’m obviously broken…. or something is super off with me that I attract these types of people.  

I seriously fucking give up


It’s Friday….

…. and I’m not really in love.  ( little Cure humor for ya)

I have an extremely busy night so I’m having a very chill morning.
I’m at my Morning dog sitting job but the pup is asleep.  So…. it’s time to play music and relax.  I love this mash up…. check it out! 

Have a fun & safe weekend!  💋 💕 

Social Media & its Latest updates….

Lets chat about your favorite apps & their latest updates.

What’s your favorite updates from this past week?

Mine has been Busker & Snap Chat.

The updates are fantastic! Better look, easier to look up content, and a shit load of other fun and exciting things. 

What is your fave app on social media?

Do you use it to promote your business or for recreational purposes? 

Are you ready for live streaming to take over? 

When you get free time … what social media app do you go to? Or what app in general to you go to?

There are so many wonderful and creative apps to choose from!  

Is it too much knowledge under One finger? Or do you feel like it’s relevant if not necessary in the world that we live in today?

Oh..hello Mesa. We meet again. 

It’s a beautiful day here in Arizona!

Today I ventured out to Mesa to spend the day with friends.

Massage, Facial, Lunch with friends…. need I say more? It was amaze-balls !

I have a bit of a grudge against Mesa. However, I put away my grievances and drove out there. 

Driving down Lindsay Rd to Brown …. passing familiar streets…. passing familiar houses …. fighting the urge to flip off Mountain View High School.  Haha!!  It’s hard not to feel a little bit of nostalgia. 

I had a fantastic massage and facial followed by a delicious lunch  with friends at Flancers. 

Days like this really make you stop and think about what’s good in your life. Things could be much worse. I truly appreciate the people in my life.

Feeling full from lunch, relax from the massage, and have a happy heart… I finish my afternoon contemplating a nap. I wanted to buy flowers to bring home… A finishing touch to the afternoon. However, I could not find anything that wasn’t roses. Must be left over from  Mother’s Day.  

Oh well.. maybe some other day?

I think I’ll catch a cat nap before heading in to work. 

It truly is a beautiful day

I have no words…

I feel…  like I have nothing. Everything has been stolen from me and I don’t have the strength to try and get it back.  People take … until the pick your bones dry. Leaving you with nothing. And they don’t give a shit about you.  You could rot away in to nothing and they wouldn’t lift a finger let alone extend a hand.  Whoever said … it’s not a bad life just a bad day … can go fuck themselves.  Ive been sought after and preyed upon , left for nothing,  ignored and neglected, thrown in to the landfill….

No one really ever gave a shit.

I don’t know if I will ever be able to piece the broken pieces they all left me in. I hope they are happy.  To them … I’m just the dirt under their feet.  Their boots made a mess of me.