I feel… like I have nothing. Everything has been stolen from me and I don’t have the strength to try and get it back. People take … until the pick your bones dry. Leaving you with nothing. And they don’t give a shit about you. You could rot away in to nothing and they wouldn’t lift a finger let alone extend a hand. Whoever said … it’s not a bad life just a bad day … can go fuck themselves. Ive been sought after and preyed upon , left for nothing, ignored and neglected, thrown in to the landfill….
No one really ever gave a shit.
I don’t know if I will ever be able to piece the broken pieces they all left me in. I hope they are happy. To them … I’m just the dirt under their feet. Their boots made a mess of me.
Every day … every single day
I cried for you tonight but …. You weren’t there. Just memories flooding my mind.
I screamed out your name as tears rolled down my cheeks. My heart was missing you terribly.
I felt lost without you tonight…. the hole that’s in my heart ached for you to be here. Listening to your voice, Seeing your smile, holding your hand.
My soul reached out to you tonight … but came back empty handed. You were not there. I curled up in to a ball and cried until the pain felt numb.
I cried for you tonight…. not that you care. I don’t matter
. It’s enough to break you in to a million pieces
I’ve had one day to recover from our Disney weekend. It was so fun! Expensive but fun ( which i will cover in this blog this week)
I was at my wits end. Burning the candle at both ends … and then this trip revived me!
My dancers performed Saturday night (we live streamed it on Busker ) and the show was a big hit! Disney coordinators told us that our show pulled in the biggest crowd they have seen in a long time. That was such a great feeling. Our crowd went from the new backlot stage,passed the old stage and half way to the Monsters Inc. ride!
We were super stoked!
Friday & Saturday was a blur of check points, getting to one place to another and lots of Disney protocol. But… sooooo worth it!
By Sunday … I was exhausted! Words can not describe how happy I was to make my Starbucks run while inside the park. Praise the coffee gods!
After my usual Vanilla Latte & my son’s “go to” white mocha, we were off to open the park and close the park. No stopping us while we’re there.
By midnight Monday morning we were in bed and checking our steps and mileage for the day! Over 21 miles in 2 days!! Crazy
Now that we’re back….Getting back to the daily routine has been rough. Definitely feeling it.
Hope your weekend was great and magical as well!
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Hugs & Kisses …. Heather
I’ve never been so happy to get the hell out of Arizona. A weekend away is seriously what I needed. Can’t wait to get on the road and drive!
I was getting to the point that everything and everyone was getting on my nerves. Work stress, financial stress, bummed out about things… that’s no way to live. So it’s time to leave. Yes… part of this is a working trip but for the most part , I’ll have a lot of free time.
My dancers are performing in California Adventure on Saturday, April 1st @ 7:30pm
If you have the Busker App…. you can view the whole show. Find me on Busker @hizzy. I won’t be busking the show but it will be on my account. We’ll be snapping the whole event as well on Snapchat @hizzy5678.
It’s been awhile since I’ve gotten away and been awhile since I’ve been to Disney. I simply can not wait to go!
I’ve been pretty much hiding out from people the past 5 months. I ventured out one Saturday night and atttended 2 different parties. No good. I was the only single person at both parties. That was fun. I’m being sarcastic ofcourse. I stopped dating 5 months ago. Everytime I tried to date someone I was just completely disinterested. Boring, predictable, lame….no thanks. Ive completely Lost faith in men … well people in general actually. I just trusted someone and let my guard down a bit and now I’m regretting it. Harsh words can cut through muscle & bone and cut straight in to the soul. Not good .
I’m looking forward to venturing out and getting some fresh air. Just unwind and let my guard down a bit. I’m tired of putting up a fight and I’m also tired of crying myself to sleep every other night. It’s time to at least have a couple days of sun, fun and friends.
This will ALWAYS be my ” Cali vacation” song….
Good morning. Hope you all are having a great start to your day!
I am ass dragging today. Almost nodded off face first in to my bowl of very tasty Very Berry Cheerios this morning.
They were scrumptious! However, I knew I needed coffee. Since I’m broke as a joke at this present time….I did not make a Starbucks run. I went somewhere else. Took one sip and gagged. Needless to say a whole cup of iced coffee got sent to the trash.
Has anyone else had a hard time feeling fully awake lately? I’ve had allergy issues for about two weeks now. My friends of all complained of the same thing. Allergies seem to be kicking everyone’s ass lately.
I need to find a morning routine that wakes me up and cuts out the coffee. Ugh…. I can’t believe I just said that! However, I know I need to cut back on the caffeine. What is your morning routine? What gets you up and ready and out the door?
My biggest problem… going to bed too late. I probably get around 6 hours of sleep a night. They say you shouldn’t watch TV, do computer work or play on your phone st least 1.5 or 2 hours before bed. Seriously? 2 hours? Here’s the deal. I work evenings. I come home , have dinner ( another thing you’re not suppose to do right before bed) , then I catch up on emails or messages. Then I will probably watch the peeps on the Busker App for about an hour. Next thing you know… it’s after 11pm. I envy those people that get 8 hours of sleep a night… ENVY! How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
If you want to share your morning or night routines that help you… pass them along! firstname.lastname@example.org
Hope your day is great & you get plenty of rest! 😊
Dusting the cobwebs off this baby. It’s been a hectic and crazy time lately. I haven’t forgotten about this little corner of the world … just haven’t had the time to venture to it.
So …hello again -to those that follow this blog and hello there- to the newbies😊
Let’s start with your ” me ” time.
What do you do … for you? You deserve time for yourself. Even if that means cutting time from someone or something else. I find if I don’t refill my cup… I am no good to anyone for the week. Sometimes I get carried away with my ” me” time and get a little lazy…. hello Sundays? However, I make time for me by making a Starbucks run, calling my Aunt and having a chat, going to the zoo, hiking trails or running around town playing Pokémon Go with my son. If I’m feeling Uber stressed … I try to cut what I’m doing and take some time for myself. If you REALLY need some time but can’t figure out what or how … go to your App Store ASAP and download the Insight Timer app. It’s fantastic. A ton of different mediations and an excellent hypnotherapy session for sleep. If you can’t sleep… this app is for you. I’ve been using it for a year now. It’s brilliant.
Who doesn’t get stressed over finances? That’s right… NO ONE . These past few weeks I’ve been a stressfest. However, I’ve tried to stay positive & proactive. Plus… it helps that I leave on a working vacation in a handful of days. My four day work week and then off to California with my kiddo and 40 of my students. So I truly can’t complain. However, I’m currently working two jobs, have my own online store and I’m dog sitting. Work , work , work and still struggle , struggle, struggle. What do you do to help alleviate your financial stress?
Stress, worry, doubt, frustration…. we ALL go through it. How you deal with it is the end game. Some days I feel like I’m doing awesome other days I’m like … ” what the hell am I doing with my life??”
Stress is tough but keep your chin up and keep fighting for ” your ” better day. Because if you don’t fight for what’s yours and make yourself a priority at times… you will be on an uphill struggle. I’d rather claw my way to the top and slide back down.. at least it’s more fun. 😊
Go out & get the life you deserve!💖
So today was rough, scary, sad, frustrating ..
Make a long story short… here’s the highlights.
New car battery
A man tried to get in my car when I was at a red light
My heart hurts
I am completely freaked out by today .. if he would have gotten in my car and I vanished.. would anyone know I was gone or care?
That will be the question that keeps me up for the next week.
So… I’m reaching out to all my loves on my blog , social media and live stream platforms to vote for me ( Hizzy ) at the Busker Moves talent competition. Next Wednesday – March 15th @ 7pm PT
My dancers and I are competing against three other contestants. One song … four different interpretations of it.
I believe we are first around 7:10 PT
Where can you find this glorious competition ?? On the BEST live stream app available … Busker!!
Please tune in and vote. I would appreciate it! 😘
Sitting here waiting to go to our performance. My dancers are performing at MCC tonight during halftime of the playoffs there.
It’s been a weird day. It’s dragged yet it feels like it’s going fast… is that possible?? Haha
Today I feel like I’m in slow motion and the world is on fast forward.
Only a handful of days and I’ll be on spring break! Disney in three weeks! My dancers are performing April 1st there. Should be fun!!
Next week my dancer are competing in a live stream talent competition. I will go into detail about that later.
Also … a ” mushy” post is coming too. Haha
Alright … gotta get moving. Hope you are moving and life is treating ya good. You are awesome… thank you for the kind emails. I haven’t disappeared…I’ve just been super busy. We’ll catch up soon!
Muah! Have a great day! You deserve it!